I am having a hard time dealing with some issues that are going on in the MacCabe house hold and with my life lately. I need some help praying about it and I also and thankful for my blog because I have a place to let some of my feelings out and not really have to talk.
Well to start I feel like since I have graduated high school I have lost all of my close friends I used to hang out with and I am having a hard time with that and it has progressively gotten worse since I have gotten married. I mean don't get me wrong, I love Elijah with all my heart but sometimes I just want to hang out with some girls and get out of the house and do things. He sometimes doesn't like who I hang out with or want to hang out with and it just seems like all we do on weekends is go to Best buy and do what he wants to do. I just feel so trapped sometimes. I miss not having fun with my friends on the weekends like I used to.
The next thing is my family, I have had Christmas presents for my one sister and brother since Christmas and they will not answer their phones, or call me back or even answer their doors when I stop over. Also my sister hates me secondary to me not attending her reception that she nicely planned one week before my wedding and NONE of my siblings were at my wedding. I am so hurt about that I don't know how to handle it anymore.
The apartment I am currently living in sucks. I have a Karate store below me, a mother in law that has a key to my house, a father in law that has stuff still in the house and allowing the Karate guy access to the whole downstairs to store stuff (Where we keep our things also), heating bills that are outrageous even when we are freezing and a husband that won't help pick up the house and move things. He would rather play on the computer or take a nap while the dishes, laundry and taxes are lying around collecting dust waiting to me to come home and handle them.
Elijah and I have recently gone to look at a house that is in weslyville by Cycle city. It has 4 bedrooms, 1 complete bathroom and a second one in the process, dining room , living room with a fire place, kitchen, full basement, back yard, front porch and a one car garage. It is listed for 54,900 and I know for a fact that we can afford it we already went for the pre-approval and Elijah still says we should not go and do get it because we still have a car payment and he does not want to add a mortgage payment on it even though he knows we can do it. I am so fed up with our living situation I do not know what else to do. I make what our house payment would be in 2 weeks of work (which is one paycheck) If I can make that in 2 weeks and get paid $3 less than Elijah what is the problem? My car payment should NOT be an issue anymore I got that under control. I got my car before we were even engaged and I am just sick of my car being an issue with him. I feel that even if my car was gone he still would come up with some excuse.
Another thing is why would he even let me or even go with me for that matter to look at the house and say that he likes it and such and then tell me we can't get it. That is like taking a little child to see a puppy and then saying No after they fall in love with it.
Well that is all for now I don't want to babble for ever.
Thanks for listening anyone who reads this.
Patty
This is my new hair cut and after I dyed it.
These are the first easter eggs Elijah and I colored after being married.
This was in the clearance isle at K-mart for $7 I could not pass it up.
